Wen pain sets in, I dun cry, I only feel gravity… Its tym 2 b a big girl n BIG GIRLS DON’T CRY
21, I learn 2 accept tings
21, I learn 2 be more optimistic n positive
21, I learn tt tings happen 4 a reason or anotha
21, I learn fairy tales don owez hv a hepi ending
21, I learn no meta wat happens, lyf has 2 move on
21, I learn f’ships n r’ships r owez bein tested
21, I learn sumtym, smths r juz nt meant 2 b
21, I learn d meang of true frens n ppl whu claim demselves as ‘fren’
21, I learn whu r d ppl whu’ll b by my side in wateva situatn
21, I learn whu r d ppl whu can accept me as whu I am
21, I learn true frens r d ppl whom I mite disappoint bt stil 4givs me
21, I learn bein a true fren is 4eva 4givin, coz I blif u cant possibly hurt sum1 u luv
21, I learn tt m stronger den eva, den I tot I wld b
21, I learn u mite tink u’ve chosen wats bez 4 u, bt sumtyms God has bigger plans 4 u
21, I learn God’ll only test us wat’s w/n our ability, God isn’t ruthless
21, I learn cryin don solve d prob, it only makes u feel beta, or hopeless… so find a soln, face it n werk it out
21, I learn evryting’s created in pairs, so u gotta balance both
21, I learn tt d feelin of hatred wont make ur lyf peaceful, so 4get it n concentrate on otha impt stuff
21, I learn tt I get over tings faster den eva
21, I learn tt m immuned 2 d tings gg on ard me
21, I learn more n more responsibilities settin in
21, I learn tt m a reasonable person moz of d tym
21, I learn tt u cant depend too much on othas, I depend on me
21, I realize tt no 1 can hurt me if I disallow it 2 happen
2 all d ppl whom I’ve met along d way, thk u soo much 4 teachg me d real meang of lyf n makin me a beta, wiser n stronger person by ea passin day
2 sum ppl whu tinks tt rebellin n retaliatin is d only way out, TINK AGAIN… if it’s nt @ ur adv, plz don wez ur tym n make meta worst, u r @ d losing end, GROW UP, tink n act rationally instead, IT HELPS A LOT… (sesiape yg terase w dis statemet, yes, DIS 1 GOES OUT 2 U! bt if u hv no relatn/nt close w me, no offence k, dis 1’s nt 4 u)
21, my ship sails faster den b4, I hope
Gather urself up, lyf begins @ 21…
Fergie - Big Girls Dont Cry
| Fergie菲姬-The Dutch... |
Nelly Furtado - All Good Things (Come to an End)
| Nelly Furtado - A... |
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5:08 PM
dis song is soo intense/emo/meaningful/realistic wateva etc... listen 2 it...
Ciara - I Found Myself
| 18-ciara-i_found_m... |
So long
Farewell
Hello, to the new me
The better me
That's right
My Life...
[Verse 1:]
21, and I've realized,
Everything you want's not meant to be.
21 then you qualify,
The standard to responsibilities.
So I tried to prioritize
By deciding what I know is best for me.
And then there's always, love that tries to trip you up.
You try to catch yourself before you hit the ground.
But nothings promised.
Friends are there to cheer you up,
To give you strength and mend you up when you are down.
So I set sail emotion
[Chorus:]
I say
So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward.
My ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well,
After all that I've been through
I found myself.
[Verse 2:]
22, I hope that I'm,
With someone who truly cares for me.
If I'm not, I'll be alright,
I'll accept the time i know God has for me.
One day I'll be the perfect wife.
That's what destiny,
And i won't be afraid to try
though is always....
Love that tries to trip you up
But then someone who sweep you off the ground,
But nothings promised.
I'm not gonna give it up
Just because the last one let me down.
So I set sail emotion.
[Chorus:]
I say
So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward.
My ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well,
After all that I've been through
I found myself.
[Verse 3:]
I'm looking out for me,
Taking care of my needs.
Life isn't guaranteed,
It's time to start living.
It wont always be the same,
Can't be afraid of change.
You wanna have your way,
Demand till your Satisfied
You lower your self esteem,
You gotta live your dream.
It's all bout confidence,
To let them know that you can stand up.
You never try,
Learn to express you mind.
Sometimes you gotta fight,
It's your life so don't you give up.
[Chorus:]
I say
So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward.
That ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well,
After all that I've been through
I found myself.
After all that I've been through
I found myself........
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2:26 AM
had dinner @ amirah's grill w d b-clanners laz nite... purpose -> 2 celebrate feez's advans 20th bday n farewell 4 him as he'll b gg off 2 serve d nation on 7th jun... n get dis, d fd was free, F R E E! lol! of coz he treated us lar! bt we werent d only 1s dere, he invited his siglap frens too...
n as usual, wen dere's b-clan, dere's owez chaos! we were lyk practically rockg
thirds: ei nak buah!(we want fruits)
shamie: ei ape buah! ckp lah buah-buahan...
me & shamie: buah cam doesnt sounds rite seh!
shamie: korg nak buah yg camne?? ade square, round, panjang... eh panjang takde!
*roars of laffter* den shem passed d plate 2 dem...
shamie: ei feez! dorg amek buah aku!!
fiza: ei kite pn ade buah lah! tak heran nak amek ko nye!!
*anotha roars of laffter* n wen d plate is bek @ our table...
shamie: aku suke yg merah(watermelon)... *puts inside her mouth n chews* mmmm... JUIIIICCCYYY!!!
me: juicy... u lyk???
shamie: yess... i LYK!
me: i lyk d white 1(honeydew)... d whiter, d BETA!!
lols! xp
i gues d older we get, d more nonsense we produce! so we left d plc ard 9.50, 10pm lyk tt... n we talked sum shit along d way hm n oso plan jess's baby shower n all n finali d nite is over... wil upload d pix on anotha day (shamie n feez, m waitg 4 u ppl 2 upload d pix!) =p
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8:51 PM
dis song/video is specially dedicated 2 all my closest frens... y'all play an impt part in my life, kamu sgt berarti(u r very meaningful) 2 me... n I LURRRVVVEE Y'ALL, I SWEAR! eventho i mite nt always b dere physically, bt y'all r always bein missed! *huggies & smoochies*
Project Pop - Ingatlah Hari Ini
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3:12 AM
was totali famished juz nw... duno y i kept on smellin roti prata since 9+pm to ard 11+pm lyk tt... wen i ate my dinner @ 6.30pm... oh btw, its 2.30am wen i post dis entry, hehe... was whining 2 my dearez cuzzie, nurul(maissy), on msn tellg her hw frustrated i m tryg 2 find a suitable job 4 myself n d smell of roti prata n all... n she said,"terigt nak mkn keee??(tot of eatg izit??) i oso EVRYTYM lyk tt, sudd gt cravings 1!" n i told her tt my craving is always, d 1 n only, FISH & CHIPS! none otha, well moz of d tym... n she told me 2 shut up coz she's supa full n feels lyk vomittin! kemproh seh! ahaks! den wen she went off ard 12+ am, i kept on imaginin d italian prata n cheese thosai @ mr prata, evans rd near MOE cca branch(i tink its sumwhere @ bt timah) n d paper prata n kosong bwg @ casuarina curry, upp thomson rd, eventho d smell's gone... gosh! so i ate a bowlfull of koko crunch cereal w milk as a last resort 2 fulfil my famish-ness @ 1.15am! lol...
niwaes, browsin 4 songs again juz nw, n found a new 1 by bow wow ft t.pain - outta my system(or mayb nt tt new, i duno)... he's sooo much cuter wen he was waaay much younger n nw wen he's all grown up, he decided 2 b a playa... hopeless lar all dese ppl! bt wadde heck, whu cares, tt's his lyf aft all, so y'all juz listen 2 d song aite ;p
| Bow Wow - Outta My... |
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1:42 AM
fiza msged me yday evening sayin tt DP(Dorothy Perkins) is havin 30-50% SALE!! shit, shit, SHIT! i wana shop sooo badly, bt m supa broke @ d same tym! anw, 10q soo much fiza 4 tellin! =)
my fam had dinner @ boon keng ville yday(my dad wanted 2 eat d sup kaki dere soo badly) n i juz had mee hoon grg putih... n me n my mum juz cldnt help bt rmberin wat happened...
me n my mum finished our fd n was chattin while waitg my dad 2 finish his, den dis woman(a chinese lady whu lks lyk she's in her 40s) came..
woman: skew me, r u stay ard here??
me: *staring in bewildermt*
mum: no..
woman: ohh, ok, tenqiu..
me: *stil staring den lk @ mum n says* skew me?? r u stay ard here?? tenqiu?? bahase ape tuh??!(wat language is tt??!)... skew me, screw u lar!
n i realise tt d woman is askin d same qn 2 a couple sittin a table behind us... lol. apparently, d woman is a surveyor... bahh! nx tym go learn simple sentence structure 4 eng okie?? =p not say my eng is superb la, bt at liz try 2 speak properly can esp wen u r in d cust svc or pub relatn line...
niwaes, was bored juz nw n i tried a test on 'wats ur stress style' n dis is my result...
You're a Sergeant!
What's Your Stress Style?
Brought to you by Tickle
ok, i noe dis is bullshit! lol. ok bye 4 nw...
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7:27 PM
im soooo supa hepi... wana noe y?? yups, m eligible 4 d gst offset package!! yeyness!! huahuaks! so, i cant wait 2 receive d $200 in jul! hee =p
ok, so had dinner w my fam on wed @ al azhar, bt timah... our table is sooo filled w fds! m soo full tt i feel lyk puking seh! bt nevatheless m satisfied n my toffee milk shake is damn nniiiiccceeee... bt a bit too sweet i gues... so moral of d story: mkn seblom lapar/kebulor, brenti sblom kenyang(eat b4 u r hungry, stop b4 u r full). ahaks!!
nnn finali feez chged his theme(fr cinta bollywood 2 smart casual)... i didnt reali lyk d idea of cinta bollywood initiali, bt i tot since it's his occasion soo... bt m glad tt dere's a majority of 'unsupportive' ppl w regards 2 d theme til it has bin chged, heee =p (sori ar beb. kan aku da ckp, mane nak dpt baju bollywood seh...)
ooohhh, my aunt(wak nor) called mama juz nw regardin d trip 2 my uncle's hse in usj(subang jaya)... my aunt oso nt sure whetha her fam wil b gg dere... so she suggest mayb go shopg @ melaka 4 1 day... n mama said "k la, c hw ltr..." haizzz... i cant belif m gg dere again n AGAIN! (tt's if its reali confirmed ar)...
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12:20 AM
ok, dis is gona b an emo entry(dis is sooo unusual of me)... i duno wat came over me, i juz feel a bit emo 2day n i duno where 2 start... reali
tym flies n ppl chg... 4 d beta or worst... 2 gain more hepiness or sorrows... 2 b more matured or childish den eva... 2 stil b 2getha or far apart... stil rmb d memries or 4get dem all... stil care n concern or juz don bother... stil bein able 2 b w d luved ones or c dem disappear, slowly, 1 by 1... stil able 2 b dere or juz fade away...
i can sense d feelin of a losing grip, or mayb its juz me... lyk i've said earlier, i DUNO wat came over me... NO QNS ASKED, TQ.
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3:01 AM
sori i had 2 break d news cuzzies... my fam mite nt b gg 2 bik nita's hse durin d pub hol aft all... mama tak dpt cuti lar... she says tt sum of her colleagues took leave on d fri(pub hol falls on thu), so she cant take it... saddenin rite?? i noe! *sobsss* haiz... only wen i tot i've seen d lite, it juz fades away in a blink! bahh!
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4:52 AM
ok, so i've decided wat 2 bake 4 both my parents... yups... cupcakes!! nw waitin 4 dem 2 cum hm... hehh...
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5:29 PM
oooooh yar....
HEPI MOTHERS DAY MAMA & HEPI 47th BERFDAY PAPA!!
hee... =p
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5:03 AM
ok its 4.20 in d morng n i reali duno y m stil wide awake... anw, was browsing tru sum songs on d net n i duno y i kinda gt addicted 2 omarion's ice box... notin related 2 me tho... listen 2 it aite...
"I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold"
haha...
| Omarion - Ice Box.... |
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3:30 AM
gues wat... m all alone @ hm nw! yup both ma n pa went 2 tg pinang dis morng n wil b bek tmr evenin... i refuse 2 follow dem, i mean c'mon la, tt plc is soo borin, notin much 2 do oso! actuali dey went dere 2 get deir body massaged @ comfort hotel which is beta known as royal palace hotel bek den... "dorg urot sedap, murah lagi" said ma... wateva la ma, both of u go massage den i do wat? rot in d hotel rm izit?? its ok la, i'd rather rot @ hm seh, @ liz dere's sumtin tt i can do! so i juz cooked sumtin 4 myself juz nw... kebulor seh tadi! ooh, tmr's mothers' day n my pa's b'day! sheesh... hmm, stil tinkin of wat shall i bake 4 dem...
anw, notin much happened dis wk... so i gues dis is a brief entry... oh ya, a coupla days ago my fam went 2 eat @ bilal restoran n pa asked ma whetha wana go anwhere anot dis comin pub hol(vesak day)... ma said mayb go my uncle's plc(d 1 tt lives @ subang jaya, sumwhere near kl la)... n pa says "anyting la" n ma says "ok, c hw la, ask wak nor(my aunt) whetha she gt any plans anot, mayb we can go 2 getha"... so its not confirm yet lar... bt i hope tt both my uncle n aunty n dearest cuzzies can make it dis tym round...
so cuzzies by any chances if u r readg dis, MAKE URSELF FREE AITE! lol...
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10:21 PM
i make d bez omelette, well at liz in my fam, hehe =p
n had honeydew pudding w nata de coco... nice.. *lickg lips*
anw, dis post is actuali dedicated 4 nyp esp sbm... hehe... m gona miz all dose tyms, well 3 yrs i spent dere...
nyp's atrium, which is sumtyms d meetg pt 4 us(wen gg hm tt is)
durin TEP aka slackg moments.. haha...
SBM's lect theatre where its lyk a mini gatherg 4 b-clan as we r fr diff clazes...
along d corridor/aisle tt moz of us(well 4 me moz of d tym) r seen rushg 2 tut rms...
n dis plc is...
yup, NYP makeup artiste team's clubrm, oso anotha fav slackg plc esp 4 me n ritha, hehe =p
bt dere's 1 plc tt i 4got 2 take pix of... Mac canteen! bodo seh, wen tt is our slackg corner... shees.. bubbye all =(
oh ya.. msg 4 Bat ->
Hepi sooooo Belated 21st Berfday! aku totali 4got ar... jgn marah eks, nant kene jual.. hehh
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10:06 PM
was watchg mengejar matahari on suria juz nw n winky wiryawan is soo cute lar! 2 bad, d fella is married... i was feelin sick since 2 days ago n i duno wats d reason... mom said mayb lack of rest but i've gt too much rez oredy seh... can too much rez makes u sick?? hmmm... anw here r d pix fr my hol...
n i found out sumting new abt myself... no meta how full my stomach is, i juz cant resist pepperoni pizza n fish & chips! i swear! bt i noe tt i'll always hv cravings 4 fish & chips durin pms.. k, i noe tt's unnecessary...
i took d pix of full moon in jb while d car's being washed, nice rite...
oh ya, m soo supa dupa pissed w 1 msian immigratn personnel... durin our entrance in2 msia d fella stamped evryting oredy n gv bek our passport, den my mum checked our white card(departure n arrival card) wasnt in d passports! luckily she cek on d spot, so my dad stopped d car at 1 side n return 2 d counter... upon seeing my dad comin d fella(he was talkin 2 his colleague) n his colleague said "die dtg alek" n d fella juz gv bek our cards w/o sayg anyting n he wasnt apologetic at all lar! NOT @ ALL!! i feel lyk spankg his head seh! &^%%#$&
anw d order of pix is fr d laz day 2 d 1st day in melaka(so d pix of moon is wen we were headg bek 2 spore n pix of kitten is wen we arrived in melaka)...
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11:43 PM
